I am sad

I am very sad.

As many of you know my father passed away October 3 at around 2am.
Always thought of my father as a strong person.
It was hard to see him getting weaker as the Cancer advanced.
It was very hard to see him on his last days.
Yet we got to talk and make peace. Not that there were many things pending to make peace on. But we got to say good bye.

When the moment came, in the middle of the night, when I was told that he was finally gone, I didn't cry a sense of relief and peace. No more needles. No more tests. No more procedures.

So I am sad, yet I'm relieved. I take confort in that he is not suffering. I take confort in the knowledge that he is watching over us.

As I told people several times during the funeral:

"My Dad is cured now"

--Robert

Will you miss me?

Life is this.
Just that.
Another question I have to ask.

Life is this.
Just that.
Another question I have to ask.

Will you miss me when I am dead?
For at least a day or two.
Will you miss me when I am gone?

Baby Pacheco on its way

Finally we can tell you all that a baby Pacheco is on its way. As of today Amanda is 15 weeks pregnant. In two weeks we will find out if it is a boy or a girl.

Parents without children?

My "Little Brother" were having this conversation about orphans. I asked him if he knew what an "orphan" was and, he responded: "A kid without parents". Immediately asking back "How do you call parents with out children? No wait that doesn't make sense..."

But I interruped him there and explained to him that Amanda and I are parents without children "here". Our priest has reminded us of that fact more than once. We are parents of two children. Event thought we never got to meet them. But we will, One day, when our time here is through.

I know many people people find this thought hard to swallow even though we get symphaty smiles and silence when we bring up the subject. But it is very true for Amanda and I. And my "little brother" had no problem accepting that. But that is because the world is so simple when you are 11.

Right?

Maybe the world should be that simple to start with.